Why I am not ashamed
I am not ashamed to be called a follower of Christ because he taught me how to love. If you knew me before I turned my life over to God, you would have seen a tangled mess of doubt, disappointment, depression and anger. I was raised in a Christian home with Christian parents who loved God. I saw their struggles, they were not rich, rather we were flat broke. But I always saw that my parents were faithful to Yeshua. I am not talking about going to church every Sunday or dressing better than others (We could not afford fancy things). I am talking about a sincere want to love other people and to help others in their time of need. I did not get this because we were needy ( I drank Powdered milk and lots of potatoes growing up) , but they never asked for anything, they only gave.
We ended up living in a camper, because my father was disabled and it was tough for him to find work. But still I saw God’s love in our family. My parents never complained, only thanked God for what we did have, and had faith that God would see us through each and every day. He did.
As I grew older I fell away from God. I moved out from home and did my own thing. I started off very successful, I got a well paying Job, had my own place, a motorcycle a car and all the little toys that people love. I did my own thing, I would get hammered on the weekends, get high constantly, my language turned foul, I began to sleep around and completely blocked God from my life. I started to question God, and said if you really loved me and my family, why did you not give my family these things when I was growing up? I grew colder and colder towards God.
But as I grew colder towards God, I could see that my parents were becoming successful. They were broke but they decided to start a small cleaning business and dedicated it to God. Cleaning peoples houses. I though it was cute to be honest and didn’t think much of it. They started with a little windex and some bleach and got on their hands and knees and started cleaning houses. But as time went on (A couple of months) people started seeing that they did great work and the business began to grow. During this time, I still was cold towards God, in my soul I was being pricked to return to God, but I continued to reject him and do my own thing. Well, I had to sell my motorcycle to cover some bills and to to take care of my drug habit. Just a little while later I had to sell my car to keep the lights on in the house because my paychecks went to gambling and drugs. I was so desperate I sold my car for 1600.00 when it was worth much more than that. I called my parents full of pride and was telling them I was doing just fine, when I was not.
Well come to find out my parents cleaning business turned into Gold, they had more clients than they could handle. They were sitting pretty in a nice house, a couple nice vehicles, but they were faithful to God with their money and continued to help the needy and give to God. Meanwhile I continued to do my own thing. I could no longer afford to live in my place because my gambling and drug addiction reached a max. I moved in with a friend and continued with my drug habit. God continued to tug on my heart. If your a Christian you know the feeling. I continued to reject God. I then lost my job, a well paying respectable job, because I got high too often and was late to work too much because of my addiction.
I decided to take a couple weeks and visit the family for Christmas. When I got home, I knew that God was blessing my family. I could see it all around the house, the blessings and love of God. Still I rejected Him. After the vacation, I flew back to the place I was living, and immediately I went to go get high. I still wanted nothing to do with God. God was still tugging on my heart to return to him.
The day after I returned to where I was living I was driving my friends car, and got into a bad car accident. I was t-boned by another driver going about 50 mph. The car was completely wrecked, yet I did not have a scratch on me. The firefighters and medical personal that were there were confused, they saw the car and then they looked at me and saw that I was fine, not even a scratch and they could not understand how I was not harmed. I was standing outside the wreck smoking a cigarette when a police officer asked me to come over for a second. I did. He asked me to put out my cigarette. I did. Then he said hands behind your back. I had a warrant out for my arrest.
All this was going through my mind. I though to myself that I have the worst luck in the world. I was in my jail cell miserable as I could be. When they let us out for rec time out in the main area. I saw someone reading a Bible. I asked him if when he was done with It if I could read it. I even offered him my lunch tray. He said he did not want my lunch but he would give it to me after he was done with it.
Well, he did. It was a ripped up old bible with gang signs and all sorts of stuff written in it. I just opened the Bible randomly and it opened to Matthew 5. I read “Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”
Right there, in my jail cell I broke down, at the lowest point of my life, I cried out to Yeshua and repented.
I then asked God that he would not allow me to never again lose my light, and never again lose my savor as salt. I know Yeshua heard my that day in the Jail cell, a comforting feeling took over me.
I went from feeling lonely and broken, to comforted and loved. Later that day the Jail cells were opened and we were allowed to go out into the Yard to get some fresh air.
As I was outside breathing in the fresh air, an inmate named Danny who I never met before came up to me and said “Hey you know Jesus right?”. I was a little comfused by this. I said “yes I know and believe in Jesus.” He said “I knew it! I knew there was something about you, you have this light, or glow about you, that is hard to explain”
Immediately the Lord spoke to me “Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.” I was shook up at that moment. I could not fathom what just happened. I went back to my jail cell and cried tears of Joy.
God, that day proved himself to me in a way that I can not describe with words. He proved to me that however broken you have become He is always waiting for you to return to Him. Since that day forward. I have not looked back. Since then sure I have had my struggles, but my old life was finished and I am happy to say that today I am happily serving the Lord.
I Hope this Testimony will, help some folks struggling, whether you are Christian or not. Yeshua Said “Behold I stand at the Door and Knock” He is faithful. I will never ever look down on someone because of their situation, because I was in a terrible situation in life at one point of time. Yet, I am not ashamed.
The above is from GodLikeProductions.com
Kamindaki did not post it I did II-Neutron / ~Q~ So please do not ban him for me posting this.